Jonny Wilkinson
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That was a phenomenally impressive start from Danny Cipriani in the England No10 shirt on Saturday. And believe me, from where I was sitting on the England bench for most of the game, it was a joy to watch.
I guess it is only human nature, but I have been asked what it was like to watch him play so well at No10, the position I like to play. The answer is simple: it was fantastic and I was genuinely delighted for him.
The sad thing is that in years gone by, that might not have been the case. I can't deny that when Charlie Hodgson was making his mark on that position, I found it very hard to accept. Two, three years ago, when I used to attend international games when I was injured, the experience was not about watching and supporting England, or even Charlie, it was about me. In my mind, I invariably turned the situation right on to myself. It's a strange thing to do given this is a team sport, but if someone was playing well in my position, I'd be thinking: people are looking at me, they're thinking about what all this means to me.
And I acknowledge that while I'd be thinking: “I hope the team do well,” there was also a small part of me that was fearing the guy playing in my position and worrying “what if?”, if he did well.
But what is a mindset like that all about? How can you call yourself a team man if you are thinking that?
When Charlie was playing well, marshalling the game and really asserting himself, I'd know that the camera was panning in on me. I know that's the way the media works and I accept that, but I used to be sitting there thinking: “How should I react if Charlie is playing well and the camera goes on me?” Because I'm not an exhibitionist so I'm not about to stand and roar with delight, but I can't just sit there and do nothing, either.
That's how much I thought about myself. But I was living in a different world then, where fear and doom were related to the different eventualities of my existence. Who was I without rugby? - that was the kind of question I'd be dealing with. Who am I if I don't play for England again? I'd be thinking: “Everyone's image of me has changed.” I was seriously spiralling downwards.
But I've now got a better handle on it. Now I think: “It's so simple, it's not about me, it's about the team.” So when I was watching on Saturday, I was purely thinking: “I hope the team do well.” And my only real thought for myself was that I needed to be alert and prepare for when or if I came on. I knew I was covering 10 and 12 and so I kept my eyes on that.
And so to Danny, who played brilliantly. What can I say? I'll always remain a person that strives and is desperate to do well. But I certainly had none of that sense of fear in seeing Danny put in such a great performance. Because if I did, I'd be back to where I was before. I can't start putting labels on things like when am I going to be No10 again?
When Charlie was at the top of his game, I'd have said: “Just let me play in the next World Cup.” I'd have settled for that.
But if you think like that, it's never going to end. Because there'll always be something, I'd always be asking for one more game at No 10.
Don't get me wrong, I deeply want one. But who knows what's going to happen? The future might not have the perfect answer. The joy for me cannot hang on the label - me, the England No10 - but in the striving; the eternal quest to make the most of myself.
Does it affect me that no one's going to wave to me in the street any more? No, it doesn't. They'll be waving at Danny after Saturday's game and deservedly so.

Jonny Wilkinson plays at fly-half for Newcastle Falcons and England. After making his international debut aged 18, he played a crucial role in helping England to win the World Cup in 2003. Also a British Lion, he provides an exclusive insider’s view on rugby in a regular column for The Times

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jonny,
i have watched loads of games with you in the fly half and most of them you play really well ,i find it hard to believe that you are happy with danny in the no.10 shirt but maybe you do and must have a really nice personality. Keep trying and dont give up and i will be right behind you x
Jess, rainham, england
as if no one will wave at him in the street and wave at danny cipriani instead!
cipriani may be good but i still think Jonny's the best all-rounder.
Harry, Brighton,
Lee buryne has to be in after his six nations performance
Lloyd Evans, Bridgend, Wales
My tutor at school used to coach jonny when he was at school and he used to tell me that you need to experience failures and success in a few different positions, to gauge a real appreciation of how it feels from different perspectives. Maybe this will be a start of a career at 12 for jonny? Although Cipriani as been glorified by the media I believe jonny has the all round game as well and can see him winning his spot back over the 'young pretender'. He should certainly look towards the Lions tour where undoubtedly his experience should be called on in such a vital position. Best of luck to him..
Rob, Dorset,
A truly gifted magnanimous team player - always been solid and for that we salute you Jonny!! Not the end of this chapter I am sure.
Dan Marsden, Kent, England
i think you are and always will be a credit to yourself,your family and your sport.when you first came to prominance england put you at 10 and moved catt to 12,from 10,and english rugby had a new lease of life.history may now repeat itself in reverse for you.all you can be is your best ,and ready for any challenge given you and if thats at 12 then so be it.any team in world rugby would want you and cipriani in the same team,you are world class 10,but you can also be a world class 12 and if thats your new challenge then take it.put in the work and effort you always have and the rest will take care of itself.your country and fans still need you and always will.( phill.4.13.)
daren beesley, walsall, england
Jonny - keep going. I think you are about to embark on a fascinating part of your career at 10, where you can relax and enjoy the game a lot more; try new things and bring out the other strike runners around you. I look forward to watching how your career develops. You are still a massive credit to Farnham RUFC!
Olly, London & Farnham, UK
I wish you hadn't come out in favor of another religion on the morning of the World Cup final. You can bring a curse on yourself you know - check out your Bible.
Paul Flynn, Sai Kung, Hong Kong
As an avid fan of British Rugby and the game in general, I have watched your ups and downs to your career and if only everyone can look at your experiences, how you dealt with them and apply them to their own lives! What with injury after injury that you sustained for so long, I am sure I say this for everyone who enjoys the game, you always remain so professional and focused on either getting back to match fitness or keeping your goals in mind. That requires some dedication and committment to yourself.
You still deserve all the admiration people feel for you and when you hear that Danny Cipriani "replaced" you, I think it was more that there is bound to be new and fresh blood for the game and this can only enhance the England rugby game. As you say, it's all about teamwork and I for one, am thrilled we may even win the next World Cup if we keep fostering and building on talent!
I think you are great and will continue to see you go from strength to strength out there!
Angela Stott, London,
Jonny for 15 - total defence and perfect defensive kicking!
Danny for 10 - for creative dangerous running, kicking et al!
Guy, London, UK
I was delighted to see you play for England on Saturday and it is always a joy no matter what No you wear! You have handled the whole England situation remarkably well, just as we knew you would. As for Danny, yes he played extremely well, the difference between you both was driven home when he was interviewed after the game and in the excitment of the moment he swore on live tv. This you would never have done! Well done on being you - don't ever change!
Clare, Bristol,
After reading Jonny Wilkinsonâs column this morning, I was reminded again of his unique character seldom found in the world of sports today. Modest, honest, a hard worker and an admirable team player, not to forget a gentleman and example to all our kids, but do I believe every word he said in his column, yes and no and here are my reasons for saying that. Yes I believe that Jonny is honest in baring part of his soul here, there is no doubt in my mind that he acknowledge the talent of the kid that took his no 10 jersey and the difference it made to the team and the way they played on Saturday, playing a part in the victory as well as getting some pride back must make him happy. But I do believe there is definitely a part that he does not share with us; the disappointment of paying the price for the whole teams failure by being dropped to the bench, the pain of hearing all the negative things said about him after giving nearly 11 years of his life to rugby and all the injuries he had to overcome to get there again. Worst I think was to sit there and look at Danny Cipriani, just 20 years old, playing like a master, running the show with the confidence, authority and boldness that even overshadowed the great OâGara. That must have hurt, I mean Jonny is only human and what goes through his mind; where form here, how do you get back what you lost? Danny does not only have youth on his side, he is the total opposite of Jonny, outspoken, bold, an extrovert, daring and stubborn, and he handles the pressure and the media with a calm coolness that sometimes makes you think he actually enjoys it. That is the characteristics that you need to become a great fly half, which Jonny found hard to cope with although he had the talent as a player, so I will always respect Jonny and admire his greatness that we once had the privilege to enjoy, but I also believe there are pain and disappointment inside that we will never know about, because like his word that he chooses so carefully in interviews, so does he chose carefully not to show the hurting Jonny as he is too professional for that.
Daniel, Pretoria, South Africa
Jonny, you are a remarkable man. You are a sporting hero, the applause you received when you came on the pitch on Saturday against Ireland demonstrates this. I totally agree with Jonathan Wilton about you being a 100% genuine guy. You have a huge, and well deserved, fan base.
Michelle, London,
Lets face it, Danny is on better form.
But even on form you have quite varying attributes. It is my opinion that the nature needed for an England stand off has changed, and the position requires a smoother distributor. To make clear, I don't think you should go away from your fundemental attributes, but to explore other areas of your game.
The that the gauntlett has been laid out for you to improve this area. I'm keen to see how you respond at club level, and how you can liberate the England backs outside you.
Alonso, Frimley, Surrey,
How funny - an article which tries to point out that he's realised that it's not all about himself, but the article itself becomes all about him!
What about writing about what Cipriani and the rest of the team actually did? We are promised an "exclusive insider's view on rugby" but this is an insider's exclusive view of Jonny WIlkinson!
David Mills, London,
I completely agree with you. I wrote few days ago that you have played always well and it was not right for you to stay apart and watch but when I saw Danny it was a wonder and with you both it was even better. You are not only a dropper and with your skill and your personality England has only to gain with both of you.
Well done
I also appreciated the respect that Danny has shown toward you. This means that he will be a great player.
Marina, Roma, Italy
We were talking last night with friends and asked the question in our group - who is the greatest sportsman in our time? and we all came up with you jonny - most of the group weren't even rugby fans!! you've achieved so much and you will carry on doing so it's just your makeup, you are just that kinda guy, you've made an impact on so many different people not just rugby lovers. Danny should be chuffed that he has someone like you in the pack to play with, you will compliment each other beautifully, I watched you on saturday, you aren't just an outstanding No 10 you're an oustanding rugby player x
sophiedavey, Rogate, Hants
It is rare to see a sportsman so humble and true as yourself, Danny was good at number 10, but you have always been sensational. And you will be again, itâs not over yet for you at being Englandâs best fly half, England cannot do without you â and that is a fact!!!!
Khaleda Nizam Uddin, London, England
Danny Cipriani is a great player, but as he recognised it is one thing playing a great game against a poor Irish side when your forwards are laying a decent platform for you, and quite another in the wind and rain when your pack is getting shunted back and you get a wet ball and four or five defenders in your face all at once! Interesting selection decisions that smacked of external pressures ensured that the story was all about Jonny and Danny - as had been said Jonny handled this with exemplary dignity. More interestingly the back play with both Cipriani and Wilkinson could be further examined as I believe it offered great options in attack and defence. Add to this a blend of youth and experience, kicking and distribution options aplenty, great pace and footwork between them and you can start to see a future there (think Mike Catt moving from 10 to 12!). Either way I feel there is a case for both players' inclusion and not one or the other - look at how Wales handle Jones and Hook..
EC, Leeds,
You are a sporting Icon Jonny. One of the few people who can still associate "sportsmanship" with what they do on a pitch.
David, Dublin,
They broke the mould when they made Wilkinson. A 100% genuine guy.
Having said which, I think his tackling and kicking talents make him better suited to wear the number 15 shirt, which as it happens is an area where England need some solid presence.
So we can have the best of all worlds.
What price our getting it, though?
Jonathan Wilton, Singapore,
Jonny,
I understand what you are saying, but I find it hard to believe you truly feel this good about it. You also played a great game in the second half against Ireland. Don't cut yourself short. I think being out of the limelight is better for you, but not out of the #10 shirt you wear so well.
Holly, Allegan, USA/Michigan
They'll still be waving at you too Jonny ! It is great to see young talent coming through - and Danny is not the only one by any means . But that doesn't mean that it is over for you. The way you handled the situation last week with such extraordinary dignity & sportsmanship was exemplary. Like very many people I was appalled at the way Ashton treated you. Danny deserved his first chance at nr 10 but it should never have happened that way. The fact that you showed great character in dealing with a potentially humiliating experience and that you now offer genuine praise for Danny's performance is a massive credit to you Jonny. Onwards & upwards ! I believe you still have much to offer England rugby - as a player and as a role model.
DR, Epsom, Surrey